Thank you.
Went to work today, my third 12 in a row, which I am usually fine with, I usually do about four and five if I am brave enough that week, but I am stationed side by side with this damn stuck up nurse that just seemed rude all the damn times, every time I ask her a question, she wouldn't even grace me with a direct look in the face when she answers me, I am not the goddamn dustbunny that you are picking off of your scrubd so look at me in the face when you talk to me. I am sure you expect some kind of respect out of me and I am sure I damn well deserved as much out of you. Anyways, one of said nurse patient has an introducer--like an IV that is inserted into your sub-clavian vein--and nurses can use them to draw blood from instead of the patient being stuck with a needle everytime. When lab came to draw blood for the morning, the patient told the lab person that the nurses had been using his introducer to draw blood so the lab tech proceed to ask the nurse if the nurse would draw it. Said bitch nurse once again look into thin air when she response and as soon as the lab tech walked away, she started making faces and comments. Now it could be that because the lab tech was asian that I am biased but I don't think so. I hate being stick with a needle and I think my patients feel the same. I mean who in their right mind would want to be stuck when there is an easier way to do it. So instead of looking at the situation as less work for the lab tech, more work for the nurse, she needs to look at it as her patient not getting stuck. I don't like how snobby she is to start with and this had just farther damage my impression of her. I can't wait to go back to days...just being around her frustrates me!!!
sheesh!!!
- Mood:
aggravated
Now on to the cancer update, the surgeon who did the scope surgery on him told me that he tried to find the tumor with his scope but was unable to leading him to conclude that the tumor may be deeper into the tissue, which would be harder to treat, which then again put a whole other damper on my mood. He is going back to his doctor on Monday for a check up, and also to start planning for his treatment. The doctor gave us a head up on a treatment called Radio Frequency Ablation and I am coming with him for that. The doc who took the liver biopsy will be performing the AF ablation, but since he took 5 liver samples without pain med, I would be damned if that ever happens again!!!
One step at a time if all we can do now, thank you again for reading.
How do you deal with the result of the biopsy (that you failed to take your dad to) that indeed he has liver cancer??
How are you suppose to react to the news?? Complete devastated that he is having one of the most deadly and uncurable disease, or are you suppose to be calm because you need to be calm for him?
How old are you suppose to be so that you are prepared to lose one of your parents?? Is it 27 or 72 that you are ready to say goodbye to the one that would risk his life because he wants a better future for you?
How do you help him fight when you know that you can't?? that the only thing you can do for him is be there for him, let him know that you care, that you love him more than anything, that it still would be a great loss to you despite all the things that had happened?
And yes this is not fictional or a made up thing, this is the reality I am facing.
I do realize that this post will be depressing your friend's page, but until today, I still haven't broke down because I found out my dad had liver cancer yesterday. I don't know if I am in denial, or if I have so much faith that he will make it. Experience tell me that the disease will win, but the question is when?? My dad is not as healthy as he used to be, and he is putting up a strong front for his family (which consists of mom, my brother and I in the US, the rest are oversea) but it still hurts. It hurts like hell, knowing that he will be the only one physically fighting this FUCKING disease!!! We can be there for him emotionally but how to do you help him fight physically?? My dad is someone who hates to be idle, and now he is confined to a hospital room in this rainy dreary weather--no thanks to ike, and to add the icing to the cake, he is having cholelithiasis (gallstone) that is causing backing up of the bile which then leads to cholecystitis and give him constant pain!!!
Once again, I am sorry for totally depressing your friend's page, and I rarely post, but it's hard keeping it in. I do know that alot of you don't know me well, I don't necessarily wants you to have to go out of your way to comment, but please any wisdom out there would be nice (and a couple of virtual hugs wouldn't hurt)
And in all of this madness, I have to deal with a bitch of a fucking new sister in law!!!
Life is beautiful...
- Mood:
indescribable
- Location:in the computer room at home
- Mood: aggravated
- Music:none...just the humming of the heater
2007 is passing by way too quickly for my liking, partly because I felt like some of it was a blur, lol. Discovered many things throughout the year, and one of it is LJ. All the fanfics I came across provided as a great stress reliever and great company while I am on the treadmill. My only regret is that I cannot contribute as I lack both creativity and time, so in order to make up for that, I tried to let writers know that I really do appreciate all their times and efforts. Well, we are less than a week away from Christmas, and whether it is a religious occasion for your or not, I do wish every body who happen to come by a very safe and Merry Christmas with your loved ones, and the a New Year that will be filled with good times family and friends that wil carry on to the rest of the year!!!
*\(^.<)/*
- Location:in bed
- Mood:
sleepy - Music:DBSK on my ipod
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